Straight from an Indecisive Heart
By Lisa Elliott

My four-year-old grandson, Jaxon has a new saying, “I do… but I don’t.” It’s quite a dilemma he finds himself in on a regular basis.

It’s not as indecisive as it is torn. It’s that feeling of being caught in the in-between. It’s that place where you wrestle between what you want and what you have, where you’d like to be and where you are, your ideals and your reality.

I find myself in this place often. Chances are, you’ve been there, too.

On one of these in-between days, I found myself in the book of John. Specifically, John 1:35-39 which says, “The next day John was there again with two of his disciples. When he saw Jesus passing by, he said, ‘Look, the Lamb of God!’ When the two disciples heard him say this, they followed Jesus. Turning around, Jesus saw them following and asked, ‘What do you want?’ They said, ‘Rabbi’ (which means ‘Teacher’), ‘where are you staying?’ ‘Come,’ he replied, ‘and you will see.’ So they went and saw where he was staying, and they spent that day with him. It was about four in the afternoon.”

Notice Jesus’ words to his first disciples, “What do you want?”

At that moment, I had to stop and ask myself, what do I want? To be quite honest, like my grandson, I wasn’t quite sure. Besides, was what I wanted what I really wanted?

What do you want?

The next thing that grabbed my attention was the disciples’ reply, “Where are you staying?” I found it interesting that of all the things, they wanted to know where He was staying.

Finally, Jesus’ response was simply, “Come, and you will see.”

Years ago, I studied Henry Blackaby’s book, Experiencing God. In this study, he speaks about watching to see where the Lord is working then joining Him, rather than the other way around. That was it!

After some deliberation, I finally concluded that I wanted what Jesus wanted for me. I wanted to be where He was and where He wanted me to be. And the only way to do that was to follow Him to wherever He was inviting me to be so I could see for myself.

How about you? Do you want to see what Jesus is up to?

I love that I don’t always have to make up my own mind. I simply need to decide to follow Him.

“The Lord replied, ‘My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.’ Then Moses said to him, ‘If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us?’” (Exodus 3:14-16).

About this Contributor:

Lisa Elliott is an inspirational speaker and award-winning author of The Ben Ripple and Dancing in the Rain. Additionally, she has written articles for Just Between Us Magazine and devotionals for theStory. She and her pastor-husband, David, have four children (three on earth, one in heaven) and serve the Lord together in Ottawa, ON, Canada.